So I went to a wedding the other day. This is not a normal occurrence for me. I have attended only three weddings in the last seven years. I have to admit that for years I have been disillusioned with the thought of marriage and love. Having been married and divorced I have a little experience in this area. I have for a long time wondered if it was or ever would be worth it to go down that road with someone again. When you have been through what some would consider a failed marriage that is a very serious question.
I have dealt with those feelings of failure relating to my marriage. I realize now that I was just not anywhere near prepared to be married and to be a husband at 20 years old. Do I regret it, absolutely not. I would not be the man or the father that I am today if I had not had that experience. But it is definitely difficult to jump back into the relationship scene having gone through what I did.
I truly feel like I know what a marriage should be and the type of husband I want to be when that right person comes into my life. I know that I can and will be the husband that I should be when that opportunity comes my again.
It's interesting how going to a wedding can make you think about things. Do I want to jump into something - nope. Do I want to do things the right way and build a strong healthy relationship that will last forever - absolutely. Do I believe God can bring that right person into my life and open that door. Yes and I can finally say that I am ready to go there. I crack jokes about relationships and marriage ect... but my heart is changing and I look forward to being the husband that God wants me to be someday.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment