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I want more of God and less of mans thoughts and interpretations of God. I'm tired of people telling me Gods new plan every few months. I think God knows what he wants. I know thats crazy talk but i don't think He changes his mind on whats important every few months. Be like Jesus - We will never succeed at this, we are incapable, but we are called to try. Jesus loved people. Everyone. He corrected when necessary, but ultimately he loved, encouraged and supported others towards Him. We try to make our faith this big theological deal and all we are really doing is focusing on the things that ultimately aren't going to matter. We tend to focus on ourselves. Trying to maybe better our standing in the church and in Gods eyes. Is reading the bible, praying, seeking Him important? Absolutely. But honestly do I think that when I get to heaven He's gonna ask me if i read my bible every day. No i think he's gonna ask me about the opportunities I had to minister to someone that was hurting that I missed because I was to self absorbed.

My faith is about Him, not me. I prayed to receive Him, I prayed for forgiveness and repented. Am I saved by faith? I believe that I am. So if I believe that then what should my focus be? Should I be focusing on me? I know there are always areas in life we can improve on, but I look at Jesus and I see someone who put the hurting and struggling ahead of anything else. We need to step out of our own little box and quite being so self focused.

Love others like Christ loves you. Especially if you KNOW that He does love you. Believe what you prayed to recieve. We are called to more than we are doing. As individuals and as the "church". Things need to change.

Thoughts about moving on in life and love.

So I went to a wedding the other day. This is not a normal occurrence for me. I have attended only three weddings in the last seven years. I have to admit that for years I have been disillusioned with the thought of marriage and love. Having been married and divorced I have a little experience in this area. I have for a long time wondered if it was or ever would be worth it to go down that road with someone again. When you have been through what some would consider a failed marriage that is a very serious question.

I have dealt with those feelings of failure relating to my marriage. I realize now that I was just not anywhere near prepared to be married and to be a husband at 20 years old. Do I regret it, absolutely not. I would not be the man or the father that I am today if I had not had that experience. But it is definitely difficult to jump back into the relationship scene having gone through what I did.

I truly feel like I know what a marriage should be and the type of husband I want to be when that right person comes into my life. I know that I can and will be the husband that I should be when that opportunity comes my again.

It's interesting how going to a wedding can make you think about things. Do I want to jump into something - nope. Do I want to do things the right way and build a strong healthy relationship that will last forever - absolutely. Do I believe God can bring that right person into my life and open that door. Yes and I can finally say that I am ready to go there. I crack jokes about relationships and marriage ect... but my heart is changing and I look forward to being the husband that God wants me to be someday.